"It's a little bit funny...this feeling..." - Elton John (Repeated many times over by many people in the world)

Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of the last time I saw my "secret lover" at my favorite lounge in Laguna. I haven't been there lately, I guess it's because a part of me feels that he's doing what he had always wanted to do which was to set out traveling and singing on cruises. Maybe some day when I finish the lounge he'll be there singing "my" song. Like he always used to do. I have listened to this song in the past year for lord knows how many times, and each time I hear it, it's almost like I'm hearing it for the first time. It is a funny feeling. And most of the time those are some of the best feelings ever!

I have had many instances in my life where I didn't know exactly what it was that I was feeling other than the fact that I enjoyed the feeling. Which leads me to wonder, what makes a person happy and how important are the things that makes that person happy. Naturally, one would think that whatever makes a person happy would be important to the person. There are lots of things that makes me happy in my life, but I guess if I were to sit down and list everything in the order of importance half of the things that make me happy will not be on the list. I would like to think that I am above putting down frivolous things as being important but quite honestly, I don't think I am. Luckily I have never been asked to do so.

But I will say this...if things that makes you smile and feel good about yourself, then it might as well be important in your life.

A gentleman recently told me that he feels funny when he's around me and he also stated that he doesn't get that way with very many people or that often. And right after he had said it, he immediately said that I wished he hadn't said that to me. I took it as a compliment. He is a bit more on the calm and collected perhaps reserved side compared to all the men that I know and have met in my life. I don't know what to make of it, but what I have learned thus far in my life is that sometimes it's best just to enjoy that funny feeling for as long as you can until some thing causes you to feel otherwise.

Elton seems to know...