"This will never happen quite the same way ever again"

I am often asked why I like live theatre over films more. The reason being is that I enjoy the spontaneity that live theatre brings to the experience. I always say that the great thing about theatre is that things will never happen quite the same way ever again. Much like how life operates. The people that we meet, the experiences that we encounter and the conversations we have, can not be duplicated. It's a bittersweet theory. There are some experiences in my life that I would love to relive all over again, however I don't know if actually given the chance that I would want to. Sometimes I wonder if the great memories that we have are simply great due to the fact that we have had time to recreate, modifty and replay how we see fit in our minds through time.

So the moral of the story? Don't take things for granted. I could vividly remember some conversations and experiences that I have had in the past and I remember telling myself at the time while it was happening that I should savor the moment and live in it - for it will pass. And then into the memory treasure box it shall go, waiting to be visited years later. Oh! If only I had the power to bottle people's special memories and sell it back to them! I would be richer than....(insert funny line here)

I guess that's what makes theatre so fascinating to me, it's because it's a mirror image of life itself...or at least how we view it.

"Happy thoughts, makes for happy bodies"

A very sweet girl once told me that I was one of the happiest person she knows. Was she exaggerating? Perhaps. So being the kind of person that I am, I asked her to elaborate on what she meant by "happiest". Her response was , "whenever I see you, you're always laughing or smiling." That's actually quite interesting that she had said that because many people have said this to me, which leads me to wonder if that's the secret to life!? I admit I am always in a pretty good mood, most of the time and on most days. However, I do have my share of dark times. When I get sad about something, I guess I tend to get very melodramatic about it. Perhaps it's the theatre person in me. I'm in my early twenties, and sometimes I feel like I am pushing 40 with some of the views that I hold about people and life in general. I don't think I'm quite jaded yet, but perhaps if I am not married by 30 I may as well be by then. I guess it just depends on what happens to me along the way in life. I understand that life , or the people in it, can be cruel sometimes. But I believe I have been unbelievably blessed thus far in life with a great family, amazing friends, good health and a rewarding career. (And an astronomical wardrobe!) What more could a girl ask for? I think sometimes we as humans forget to count our blessings and be thankful for what we have in our lives. Someone once told me that whenever I am feeling down about something, just remember that there's some s.o.b out there who's in a far worse position than I am! Does that make me feel better? No always! But I understand the intent behind the advice.

My conversation with the girl lasted for a good fifteen or so minutes about life and happiness (Perhaps I should write a book called "Life in Fifteen Minutes" because most of my conversations that revolve around life and what it consists of have always tended to last between ten to fifteen minute increments.) Towards the end of our conversation she asked me where do I get all the energy that I seem to have all the time. My response was that "Happy thoughts, makes for happy bodies." Next time someone asks you why you're always laughing and smiling, you should tell them that... ;-) Cheers!

"It's a little bit funny...this feeling..." - Elton John (Repeated many times over by many people in the world)

Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of the last time I saw my "secret lover" at my favorite lounge in Laguna. I haven't been there lately, I guess it's because a part of me feels that he's doing what he had always wanted to do which was to set out traveling and singing on cruises. Maybe some day when I finish the lounge he'll be there singing "my" song. Like he always used to do. I have listened to this song in the past year for lord knows how many times, and each time I hear it, it's almost like I'm hearing it for the first time. It is a funny feeling. And most of the time those are some of the best feelings ever!

I have had many instances in my life where I didn't know exactly what it was that I was feeling other than the fact that I enjoyed the feeling. Which leads me to wonder, what makes a person happy and how important are the things that makes that person happy. Naturally, one would think that whatever makes a person happy would be important to the person. There are lots of things that makes me happy in my life, but I guess if I were to sit down and list everything in the order of importance half of the things that make me happy will not be on the list. I would like to think that I am above putting down frivolous things as being important but quite honestly, I don't think I am. Luckily I have never been asked to do so.

But I will say this...if things that makes you smile and feel good about yourself, then it might as well be important in your life.

A gentleman recently told me that he feels funny when he's around me and he also stated that he doesn't get that way with very many people or that often. And right after he had said it, he immediately said that I wished he hadn't said that to me. I took it as a compliment. He is a bit more on the calm and collected perhaps reserved side compared to all the men that I know and have met in my life. I don't know what to make of it, but what I have learned thus far in my life is that sometimes it's best just to enjoy that funny feeling for as long as you can until some thing causes you to feel otherwise.

Elton seems to know...